Failureis a big word, and you have your whole life inshalla ahead of you to prove how good of a dootcr you are. And to educate whomever around you, whether Med students, interns, or people in other professions. Simply keep in mind this critical point in the future and hopefully all dootcrs, as well as people in other professions would develop this kind of awareness for the responsibilty they carry. And May Allah heal the woman you talked about, yaa rabb.
Glad you are feeling beettr, and I surfing with symptoms is always really great for finding the worst possible unlikely and horribly scary case, isn't it?my preferred method is to go directly to wiki, look up what i believe to be the worst possible thing i could have and see if my symptoms fit! and imagine, i've had no training!